new mental thoughts. passive. no anger. doing things everywhere. all over town for court issues. fines to pay by the end of this month. time to sell everything to pay it considering i’m now shunned in the family. I can no longer see my nephews. 3 more years of torture of confinement. all my mistake for opening to much
WZRD / Efflictim
How would you feel if you heard the news that I was dead?
What would you do if you found out from your friends that I was dead?
Would you cycle through your mind, think of all the things you shoulda said, or coulda did differently?
If I was deadI’m just trying to say life is too short
Though I make mistakes baby I’m trying to make it right
All I’m trying to say is life is too short
All we got is love baby and the time to make it right
…If I’m alive that is
hm hm hmm
…If I’m alive that is
Do you think of me, at all?
Whoaaa at all? at all?
Would you think of me, at all?
Hmmm at all? at all?
Who would you talk to?
Who would be your friend if I was dead?
Who would you run to?
Who would kiss your face if I was dead?
Would you cycle through your mind, think of all the things we could’ve had
Seen things differently, if I was dead
I’m just trying to say life is too short
Though i make mistakes baby im trying to make things right
All im trying to say is that life is too short
All we got is love baby and the time to make it right
…If I’m alive that is
Hm hm hmm
…If I’m alive that is
Do you think of me at all?
Whoaaa at all? at all?
Would you think of me at all?
Hmmm at all? at all?
Goodbye.
Fuck my life. As of tomorrow it will no longer exist. Truly I’m tired of being portrayed as a monster. I’ll take this monster off this earth myself. No one will ever love this foolish person. I’m alone always have been. Always will <\3
Home doesn’t exist anymore.
My life feels so shitty now I really just want to end it. .
this is my life.
I leave tomorrow. Never to be heard ever again
The cousin of sleep
What is sick, has two thumbs, and no date for the wedding??
This guy ;{D
….Fuck -.-
Yes it was my fault. No one else’s but my own. Lesson learned. Now onto to what’s next in my life. Recovery, responsibilities
I’m not mad at anyone, I don’t need to waste my time hating what happened or anybody. I have other things to worry about and all I’m seeing these as are obstacles. Life has many of them and I must grow through them, learn from them, and make myself a better person.
Toned body ha
I’m not even gonna say anything
Fuck this life
My existence was a waste
Everything is different now. Majority of people in riverside dislike me. I dislike the majority of people in riverside. This is no longer my home. Soon very soon I will leave the states and begin anew. There’s nothing besides my family that desires my accompany. I’ve always figured to be a solitude person and I know why. I didn’t get along with most boys and girls become problems once their attraction sets in. I need to meet women and men of similar thoughts. Not kids. Girls never seem to change anything for me yet I always remove all problems for them. How much did they really care? Not as much as I did seemed like. I’ve done nothing wrong and got punished stupidly for it. 3 year probation, $290 fine, anger management for 16 weeks, or jail. Thanks now I’m screwed for 3 years for no reason. I’m so sick of this life and how its retarded. 60/40 is how I feel for this situation and strong for How it will be taken care of. No longer will I be a ‘problem’ to people. It’s not like anyone fucking cares for Michael Raudel Hernandez, now considered a convict and terrorist for a threat. The secret is being made but not saying a word because I might have the pigs called on me. It’s over for this body… Slowly as I step on the chair…time to kick it.
Marcelene has a wolf coat that fin and Jake hide in that I’d love to own.
Alone, confused, upset, nostalgic, heartbroken
Lawless brothers, fought for my life in jail,sat in freezing cold in nothing but boxers, sat on wooden benches, slept on concrete floors, ate crap all day, worn handcuffs and ankle cuffs, saw my family look down on me in court, and lost everything. I’m a changed person
It’s like he’s near in the shades of grey. Comforting and looming. What dark secrets does he hole drives my curiosity. Follow the blight or light?
Sudden sinking feeling in my stomach.
I feel like I don’t make her happy anymore, almost like she said she would probably change and be tired of me already
My mind is going to kill me
I want to die
Let’s all joke around about my girlfriend being naked since all her guy friends seem to bring that up. Fuck you!
Three strikes you’re out
Last I checked single girls go drinking at bars with 4 guys and get drunk the next night too than sleep over a guys house… Not my girlfriend. don’t expect a conversation from me for awhile
Shitty mood tday
I’m in love with you ^-^
It’s one of those days…
She lays sleeping and resting in my sheets. Watched a movie and completely blew my mind. I’ve never seen so much of what exact symbolism in a movie closely related than what I just watched with Mirey. I became confused with emotion, as if there was a hidden reserve of undisclosed feeling. Such strong emotion pulled from the subconscious of my mind. Inexpressed by the mind and released with a trigger. Boom! ….I love her
